this morning was rough. we headed to the library only to discover that i had messed up on our due dates for the 30 books we had out. they were due 7 days ago. the librarian was rather rude and i admit, i had tears in my eyes. hormones, tiredness, headache all added up to an emotional mb. not only did i have to leave to go to the atm to pay off the fine in order to take out the books that we'd already picked out - and many which i needed for school but i also had to go back home and get the books that i wanted to renew, since they were refusing to renew them through the computer.
then it rained. it was one of those cold rains where your body is chilled to the bone. andrew had a half day - for which i am thankful - so we ran back inside the house from the car and got under the blankets. cranked the heat up - shh, don't tell chris about the heat and tried our best to warm our insides.
crabby. irritated. tired. i wanted to complain about my horrible morning of driving around the city and getting nothing accomplished. then the rain stopped, the sun came back out, and my spirit lifted just a little. then andrew did something funny and i was able to crack a smile. and i realized that i had nothing to be crabby about. i am incredibly blessed with a car to drive to the library, and a free public library to get books, money to pay for fines caused by my own stupidity, and heat to crank back up in my own blessed little house.
so i went outside and looked at the brightness around me. nothing to be sad about when the mysterious tree in my yard begins to flower with its simple pink little buds. i have no idea what kind of tree this is. but it is beautiful, and it makes me happy when i find its little petals all over my car. i grabbed my camera and decided that i would document the day where i realized that i had nothing to complain about.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
i asked for a smile.
this little boy amazes me every day. most recently he has started using the potty. and i'm realizing how much i hate writing the word potty, but saying toilet trained sounds funny. anyhow, i was amazed at how easily he trained and i am beyond pleased with his progress.
he amazes me with his sense of humor. oh how this boy loves a good laugh. his most recent quip includes calling everyone "buddy." however when he says it, it sounds like "buddieeeee" and of course always brings a huge smile to my face.
he has started being a bit more independent and will head off to get out blocks or legos and play on his own. i am so thankful for that and i love when he calls me to see his creation. of course his independence is coupled with a bit of attachment. he is now fiercely afraid of walking down stairs without holding on to my hand. truthfully i was irritated as we are usually running out the door and i need him to wait for me by the car. but i'm slowly trying to keep my patience and enjoy the moment when he calls out nervously to me, grasps his small fingers in my hand and relys on me to make his way down. because some day he is not going to need me.
he amazes me with his sense of humor. oh how this boy loves a good laugh. his most recent quip includes calling everyone "buddy." however when he says it, it sounds like "buddieeeee" and of course always brings a huge smile to my face.
he has started being a bit more independent and will head off to get out blocks or legos and play on his own. i am so thankful for that and i love when he calls me to see his creation. of course his independence is coupled with a bit of attachment. he is now fiercely afraid of walking down stairs without holding on to my hand. truthfully i was irritated as we are usually running out the door and i need him to wait for me by the car. but i'm slowly trying to keep my patience and enjoy the moment when he calls out nervously to me, grasps his small fingers in my hand and relys on me to make his way down. because some day he is not going to need me.
Monday, March 26, 2012
beach day
we took a beach day.
see, we've had this unseasonably warm winter, where i've enjoyed heading out without a coat. and then in march we had these high temperatures, and on the first day of spring i was wearing flip flops and a skirt. its been unbelievable, and i'm enjoying it. truthfully i'm expecting a massive amount of snow next winter, and so i'll gladly take what we have now.so we headed to the beach. it was one of those spur-of-the-moment decisions. you know the kind - like when you are driving by dairy queen and the thought of a blizzard pops in your mind, and you have to make a quick decision because turning around would be more effort than you are willing to give. i had approximately 30 minutes to decide and pack our bags. a quick call to chris and getting the okay to drive the hour to the beach was all i needed. we had been out all morning, and so with christian asleep in the car, i threw things in the cooler and beach bag, all the while feeling that flutter of excitement that a special adventure brings. and oh my, what an adventure. it truly was one of those special days where i felt content with life, content with my boys as they played together. people nearby on the beach were friends instead of strangers as they engaged the boys and smiled at their antics. i find that sometimes i plan and plan something that i have envisioned will be the most exciting time with my children, and yet it doesn't turn out that way. my anticipation turns to frustration as the boys fight. i try to get things prepared and my hopes of a nice time are dashed by the sound of my own voice increasing in volume as i yell and holler at them to simply behave.
i have to remember that it is in the spur of the moment adventures that we are content. nothing fancy, just us. the look of surprise on the boys' faces as we pulled up to the beach. the warm sun and light breeze on my shoulders. oreo crumbs on their lips and sand in their hair.
i do love the summer, and all the fun that usually comes along. however, summer is often like those trips that i plan and plan and fail. and so, on this little day in march, we had a beach day. nothing planned. a warm day that acted as a gift to us.
see, we've had this unseasonably warm winter, where i've enjoyed heading out without a coat. and then in march we had these high temperatures, and on the first day of spring i was wearing flip flops and a skirt. its been unbelievable, and i'm enjoying it. truthfully i'm expecting a massive amount of snow next winter, and so i'll gladly take what we have now.so we headed to the beach. it was one of those spur-of-the-moment decisions. you know the kind - like when you are driving by dairy queen and the thought of a blizzard pops in your mind, and you have to make a quick decision because turning around would be more effort than you are willing to give. i had approximately 30 minutes to decide and pack our bags. a quick call to chris and getting the okay to drive the hour to the beach was all i needed. we had been out all morning, and so with christian asleep in the car, i threw things in the cooler and beach bag, all the while feeling that flutter of excitement that a special adventure brings. and oh my, what an adventure. it truly was one of those special days where i felt content with life, content with my boys as they played together. people nearby on the beach were friends instead of strangers as they engaged the boys and smiled at their antics. i find that sometimes i plan and plan something that i have envisioned will be the most exciting time with my children, and yet it doesn't turn out that way. my anticipation turns to frustration as the boys fight. i try to get things prepared and my hopes of a nice time are dashed by the sound of my own voice increasing in volume as i yell and holler at them to simply behave.
i have to remember that it is in the spur of the moment adventures that we are content. nothing fancy, just us. the look of surprise on the boys' faces as we pulled up to the beach. the warm sun and light breeze on my shoulders. oreo crumbs on their lips and sand in their hair.
i do love the summer, and all the fun that usually comes along. however, summer is often like those trips that i plan and plan and fail. and so, on this little day in march, we had a beach day. nothing planned. a warm day that acted as a gift to us.
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