i am just so tired. my semester is almost over and then i have a summer course and exams to pass. i want to go lie down in my bed and not move for a week. i want to close the computer. i want to live without worrying about what is next.
the other night we took a walk as a family after dinner. we almost didn't go even though we had talked about it beforehand. the boys were eating too slowly and chris and i were getting annoyed. however, we told ourselves that we promised we'd go out, and so we did.
why am i wishing away the time? why am i not enjoying these moments? all i can seem to do is wish toward when i don't have to run off to class, when i don't have to worry about money, when i can be present. the truth is, that is never going to be. there is always going to be somewhere, something, anything on my mind. i need to give my worries to God and enjoy the moment. going for walks with my family. playing legos with christian. listening as chris tells me about his day. reading with andrew. in the moment, living these moments.
a few images from our family walk the other night.
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